Monday, April 30, 2012

Goal Meet and still going


Team Barton just hit our goal of raising $2000 for the Epilepsy Foundation of San Diego!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thank You everyone for your support and generosity. This is just blown my mind and I can't even believe it. We originally set out to raise $500 and have raised 4 times that! I am speechless and so thankful to everyone's willingness to contribute to this great cause and just knowing how many people this is going to help makes me so happy. 








We will still be taking donations until May 31st. :)







Sunday, April 29, 2012

Need Your Help and Support

Just need $140 to meet our $2000 goal. If you would like to make a donation to our team for the Epilepsy Foundation please click the link below. Any little bit helps and please share this post with your friends! Thank you for your Support!

http://sharonsride2012.kintera.org/faf/search/searchTeamPart.asp?ievent=489577&lis=1&kntae489577=FC141D7E54F449ACA2FF095EFB454A6C&supId=0&team=5030757&cj=Y

Friday, April 27, 2012

3 more days

3 more days till I quit smoking and I am actually excited about it. I am excited to accomplish another goal and at the same time begin another step to get healthier. This has been something I am finally ready to do and I also promised my daughter tonight that I would follow through with. So I am not gonna let this little sweetheart down!

I know I can do this for me and my kids! It's about time I start getting my life straight for them!

Wednesday, April 25, 2012

Restless

I have been having the hardest time sleeping lately and more headaches than ever. I am wondering if its my new dosage since I am now on 150mg of Topamax now daily.


It's getting old quickly due to my long days as is and my body gets exchausted so fast. It's 2am and I am wide awake. I am taking today as a PTO day to get some rest and I have a damn headache again.


Counting sheep just doesn't help right now. I took a vicodin to see if that would help and nothing. At least I will eventually fall asleep.....I hope. It's to early to get up and do anything productive around the house because I don't want to wake Em and the boys up. Other than this I have been doing pretty good lately.


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Sunday, April 22, 2012

There are four questions of value in life…

Just heard this today and just love it!


“There are four questions of value in life…

What is sacred?

Of what is the spirit made?

What is worth living for, and what is worth dying for?

The answer to each is the same.

Only Love.”

-          Johnny Depp


Team Barton - New Goal Set - Need Your Help!



Hey guys, just got some news for Team Barton, I can still receive donations for Team Barton for the Epilepsy Foundation till May 31st , so our new goal is to reach $2000 by then. We are currently at $1855.00. Your donation will help in so many ways. Every little bit counts. Thank you for your support!!! Please share this on your pages.



Saturday, April 21, 2012

Setting A New Goal

So in the last several months I have achieved so many goals of mine, my weight loss, eating better, living better, getting my stress level down, doing the 5k for the Epilepsy Foundation of San Diego and completing it due to how lazy I have been after so many years of being out of shape and making excuses and letting my injured back always be the cause of never wanting to do any exercise. But even after all this and having Epilepsy now, I still have one more goal that I need to accomplish that has been haunting me since the day I started............Smoking.


I have set this goal so many times in the last 11 years and have failed each time. With each time I have failed, I have failed for myself, my health and my kids. My daughter recently asked me to quit. Through years people have asked me to quit and it's been hard. But realistically you really can't quit something until your ready within yourself to do it and are committed to do it and I am there now. 

I have set a new goal of May 1st I will be quitting smoking for good. With this goal I have the support of Emilee doing it with me along with her brother and a co worker at my work. So in my work life and home life I will have a support group behind me and I will be behind them as well. This will be a HUGE goal to accomplish and I know with everything else I have done this year that I can achieve this and many other things this year. I still plan on dropping some more weight and getting healthier not only for myself, but for my 3 amazing kids. 

So come May 1st, I will be starting another goal and I have faith in myself that I know I can do it. It's just another challenge and I have had many of those, but I can do it! One day at a time, one more step towards getting healthier! 




Friday, April 20, 2012

Getting by with nothing but time

I know many of you read my blog yesterday and was concerned on my well being and honesty on how I was feeling, but let me be truthful and state that it's been a very hard week for me in many aspects and even though I had a hard last couple of days, I WILL Not let my condition and mentality of this depression consume me. Don't get me wrong, I know I wear my heart on my sleeve and love to express how I feel to all degrees, it's a passion for me to vent and openely discuss how I am doing and that's why I have this blog, but I will not let any of this over power me and hold me down forever.

I can admit that there maybe times that I may be knocked down, that I may need a helping hand, or a shoulder, and through this all I have known nothing but the greatest of friends and family who have done nothing but support and be there for me and I love that and I could only hope that I can return the same in any needs of you in a moment of weakness or despair.

I know that I am only human and with that, I can only do so much to control what goes on with my life and I have to understand that and be ok with that.

I thought while I was on leave from work that I got past being "Epileptic" and this week I realized that I haven't and it's something I obviously am still working through and that's ok. I will get there. One day at a time and one moment of time will proceed nothing but forward for me. I still have allot to learn and with that, I have the time to learn how to manage this.

I love you guys and appreciate all the support I am receiving and couldn't be more thankful for the life that I am surrounded in.


Hi, I am Jon Barton, and I have Epilepsy!!!




Thursday, April 19, 2012

Scared

I don't know what has consumed my mind and heart today but I have been in a funk all morning and afternoon so far. I have been listening to people wine and complain about the dumbest things today. Items that seem so small to me lately and unworthy to bother with and others blow them out of proportion.  I don't know what it is or even how to express it. Things just don't seem the same anymore. I am walking around on ice never knowing and the other day at work scared the shit out of me more so for some reason. I guess its because I have always been home and felt safe. It's all sinking in now, anywhere anytime now. 

Where will I be, what will I be doing? Will my kids be safe? Will they end up with this? So many questions and not enough answers or time to absorb this all. I am exchausted physically and mentally. 

This surely is a challenge in my life, one out of many.  I have no control over this and I hate the Hell out of that. 




I know in my life I am going through a lot of changes right now, more some I don't like than others I can manage easily. But where is the relief already? The simple minded times to enjoy life without worry and now I have another struggle in my life outside my epilepsy that requires my attention that is going to be the biggest fight of my fight dealing with father hood. 


I feel lost and so alone regardless of others surrounding me with comfort. I seek that this funk fades way so my motivation kindles inside me once again. 


I just have to remind myself one day at a day, otherwise I can get addictive to this kind of sadness. 

Wednesday, April 18, 2012

A Seizure at work

So I had my first seizure at work yesterday. That was interesting to say the least. Was taken by Ambulance to the Irvine Hoag Hospital and was given tests, blood drawn etc. I was a very small seizure and those can sometimes be bad ones. I was pretty out of it for a while. Once I got release I got home and pretty much crashed.

So i just woke up a bit before 7am. I slept from around 3pm to just a bit ago. The meds they gave me did wonders apparently. Just feeling groggy and like I have a hang over this morning. So nothing but more rest for me and more fluids to continue to make sure I stay hydrated today. Hoag hostital of Irvine yesterday was the best level of care I ever received at an ER ever. Plus once they found out I was a Monarch employee the care level stepped up even better. It was my first time having a seizure at work so it was kinda embarrasing watching my co workers seeing me rolled out on stretcher by the Fire Dept and Paramedics. But it is what it is. I couldn't be more thankful for the Monarch staff involved that assisted and to my boss that went to the ER with me until Emilee got there. I still feel really fatigued today and the doctor said that would be expected, so I definently need to get some electrolits into me. My body sucked the IV back out within 20 minutes. it was crazy. So here is another day in the life of Jonny during this new adventure I am in. One day at a time folks. One day at a time

Monday, April 16, 2012

5k Completed!!! What a success!!!!


So we made it to the 5k for the Epilepsy foundation’s  this year in lovely San Diego. Emilee and I went up the night before the event and stayed at the Hilton resort and spa and enjoyed a lovely evening before the event.
The event was nothing shy of amazing for me. Team Barton was able to raise a total of $1755.00 in less than 5 weeks from starting it. That’s 3 times our original goal and I couldn’t be happier or prouder of my team and all their efforts to help me with this event.  Being so new to having this condition I am still learning so much and after yesterday’s event, I feel so much more comfortable with my condition. I meet so many others’s that live and breathe the same I do and got to really open up and share how I feel and how I am doing with others. It was a really close group of people.



I did make some new contacts that are local to me that will be a big help in spreading the awareness for Epilepsy in Riverside County and that’s awesome! That’s what I set out to do. I am already thinking about next year’s event and have several ideas for the team and things I want to do during the next year to start fundraising for the team to outdo what we did this year and grow our team. So as soon as I know when I can register for next year’s event I am sure you will be hearing from me again.

Now on to the 5k. I know it’s not that far of a walk for most people, but considering that I am completely out of shape and have recently lost 50 pounds this was a huge challenge for me and I am very proud of myself that I set out to do something for one in my life and completed it. Not only did I finish it in 1 hr and 3 minutes, but I also ran the last quarter mile with my teammate Amber who was by my side the whole time to make sure I was ok. I couldn’t be prouder of my friends that participated and family, Monarch Family and friends that got us there to be able to accomplish something like this and spread awareness for Epilepsy.
I will be gathering pictures from everyone the next couple of days and will be sharing them.
Thank you all for your support and let’s hope to see you there next year!