In this moment I am in with this life I have has been an outstanding new chance to improve my relationship with myself and the things I have broken which I am in the process of healing. This leave I have been on and soul searching I have done has been amazing. It's been allot of hard work and I have faced challenges that I would have walked away before in the passed but I am finding myself able to face and handle them and close chapters of things to move forward.
This life of serenity has become a blessing each any every single day. The love that surrounds me and my children are all that I need. I am blessed with them in my life. I have been seizure free for 2 months now and it's been amazing. Along the way of becoming healthier mentally and physically I have found things to become more clear and able to resolve conflicts I have had by accepting them. I have also lost more weight and feel physically better as days past. I return to work in a week and I am looking forward to that. I am a little nervous about it, but at the same time I get to take things as they come and get back on track with my life and concentrate on my career and provide for myself and my children.
I still have so much work ahead of me and I am gradually taking things as they come and I know that I am only getting stronger. I know my meds for my epilepsy are working well and I hope to continue seizure free and in 4 months if I am still seizure free I can get my license back and be able to have a more reliable way of getting around even if I have to rent a car occasionally to get around or go visit my children. But I know that's still some time off and I have to concentrate on today.
I never thought I would end up where I am at right now at the age of 34, but in all reality, I am grateful just to be alive after all the hell I caused. It's a glorious feeling to be in recovery and have the support to manage a better life and feel God working in me.
I don't know what tomorrow will bring, or tomorrow morning, or next weekend, but I know right now, at this moment, I am ok, content, and grateful. Today I am doing the best I can and I am at ease with that for once in my life. :)